I Will Never Sleep without Shungite again!

Shungite Mer-ka-baSeveral months ago my Guidance told me to get Shungite for protection against lower energies. I was attracted to a nice piece in the shape of a Mer-ka-ba and it proved useful right away by preventing a psychic attack.
As time goes on, we tend to forget things that one held importance and this happened with my Shungite. At times I would be surprised by where it popped up having forgotten about it. After my experience at 2:12 am Sunday morning. I had been dreaming and was not alone. I did not feel safe with the entity that was with me and woke up to get away. As I pulled myself out of this dream, I felt the entity slap me on my left side back, around the ribs and suddenly there was this maddening ticklish itchy that spread like electricity around the area.
I was stunned by the reality of what just happened. I just left a dream and the dream followed me. It was no dream….. And this is not the first time this has happened. It is only the first time I was awake when it happened.
I just had an Archon device attached. I believe it’s purpose is to block my creative energy which has been building in the past two weeks. Learning how I am supposed to serve the world has become more clear to me and blocking my energy can keep me from serving humanity in a way that helps us to evolve and be aware of our future.
The tickling in my ribs kept going and I was not sure how I was going to handle it if it got worse. I started doing Reiki. This removed the tickling, then I removed the etheric device as well. I remembered that my left knee had suddenly begun to hurt when I went to bed, so I did Reiki there and removed another device. When I woke in the morning, my right shoulder was hurting. This was also a return of a recent dis-ease which had been removed with Reiki and Theta healing.
Upon scanning my body, I found I had 97 attachments! This was in addition to the 2 I removed during the night. I removed them all by smudging then doing Reiki and Charkra balancing and I am happy that all pain and itching is gone.
I also cleared and charged my Shungite Mer-ka-ba on the ground in the sunlight to take to bed with me tonight.

Who Am I?

Who Am I?Bite Sized Pieces

There has been a recurring theme the past few weeks. Beginning with the title of this post which I wrote on July 22, 2016. Obviously there was more to the story because I never got past the idea phase. Until now.

I often read stories of blinding revelations that change a person’s life. This is not the way I get information. I always get bite sized pieces. They feel huge at the time I receive them, but wait, there’s always more to come.

At this point, I can’t even remember the download that prompted me to start a post titled, Who Am I? It doesn’t matter, what I am about to share is the correct message.

The Most Important Question

I was listening to a video by Gregg Braden and he asked what we thought the most important question was that we could ask ourselves. Without even a thought I blurted out, “Who am I?” Which, of course (else there would be little point in writing this, would there?) is the question to which he referred.

You may have asked this yourself. “Who am I?” “Where did I come from?” Our origin and purpose is a mystery that has been pondered throughout the ages. This has been the information that has been revealing itself to me since this idea flickered in July.

From the time I became aware of my walk-in in June, I have noticed a profound change in my personality, the way I speak to people, the way I handle challenges, my sense of humor, even. Others have noticed it, too, especially my husband and children.

Exploring this side of myself and removing the residual emotions and methods of the walk-out has further refined the image of myself, yet there were still grey areas.

Today that got sorted out.

 Human Design

It began with this Blog Post by Dayna referring to her Human Design Rave Chart (get your free chart at this link). There are Four Types of Human beings, Dayna is a Projector. You can read about it at the link above. As she describes the attributes of a projector, I feel as though she is describing how I used to be, to a T. I also felt this description no longer fit since my walk-in.

When I received my chart, I was shocked. The chart is configured by the Birth Datewhich is significant information because I considered myself to be a Walk-In, a new soul aspect or personality and if this were the case, my type would have been Projector.

This is my chart according to my birthdate and this fits my current [primary] personality.

Chart Properties

Name Cheryl Smith
Born 26th December
Design Date Sun, 29 Sep 1957 21:04:33 GMT
Type Manifesting Generator
Strategy To Respond
Not-Self Theme Frustration
Signature Satisfaction
Definition Single
Authority Sacral
Profile Investigator – Martyr (1/3)
Incarnation Cross Right Angle Cross of Service (58/52 | 18/17)

Rave Mandala Human Design

I thought I was the Walk-In…

….or is something else going on that I was not aware of? 

After spending some time meditating on this and conferring with my Guidance about accuracy of my conclusions, I know who I am.

I Am the primary soul aspect of this body. The second soul, the one that maintained control for the bulk of this lifetime, was the Projector. NOT the birth soul! (If you use different terms, please share in the comments, this is all new to me.) Are you confused yet? I have 2 soul aspects, both are me, but one, the primary, drives the purpose of this life, the secondary was here to experience physicality or… “visit Disneyland.” So yes, I did walk-in, however I was confused in thinking I was an entirely new personality stepping in for the first time.

On a cellular level, I have all of the memories, but they give me no emotional thrill at the thought of doing any of them again. There are some experiences that I still enjoy, but there are others I prefer now that the secondary did not have interest in. The more I get to know each aspect, the easier my day to day life becomes.

Adjustments

August 1, 2016

Since my last post I have been made aware of a few things. The oppressive energy that had me weighed down is being assimilated and I am able to think more clearly.

Diane Canfield wrote about the energy wave in two recent blog posts, July 26, 2016 message and August 1, 2016 message.

I have noticed what are called Ascension Symptoms before, but these took on a whole new level. Ascension Flu is often used to describe a general feeling of malaise attached to higher vibration sequences coming in. This time however, I actually thought I might be coming down with the flu that my husband had two weeks ago. This happened on 3 different days but never turned into the full on sickness. I experienced aches and feverish chills, just enough to make me lie down for a while. New to me were changes in my heart rhythm. This occurred over two days and could go from a mild flutter to feeling like my heart moved from the right to the left side of my chest! What an odd feeling.

My ability to meditate is returning and I feel much more optimistic. After examining my emotions and how I felt now, I am encouraged that it is all as it should be and I came through pretty quickly and with little fallout.

August 5, 2016

I have noticed another pattern. After each energy shift, when I begin to get my bearings back, friends begin calling. I don’t get a lot of calls, normally. After a shift I get 4 or 5 in quick succession, sometimes one on top of the other.

Yesterday the calls started coming. These calls always open up an opportunity to share what I have just learned, grounding it. This makes the download a permanent part of me.

Odd Dreams

I have been wanting to remember my dreams for some time. This time it seems to be working for me. During the energy transmission, I know I was dreaming, but I also know they were odd and I did not care to remember them. I normally change my dreams when they don’t make sense,I did not have the choice, I just had to ride them out.

As I began to gain clarity, the dreams made more sense, but still seem quite odd. I remember one where I was looking at a woman, the woman was me, wearing a red polka dot dress in a style from the 50s. I knew it was me but startled by the fact that I was invisible. Like the invisible man… clothes, but no body. *Interpretation* Seeing color means this is a message from my Guides. Red is an alert. It is also a color of passion. The style of dress is from a time when women were more visibly feminine and their role was more feminine even if by oppression. My body is invisible, meaning I am not showing up in my feminine role. When this was being brought to my attention earlier, I had developed symptoms of dis-ease around my liver and digestive system. I had a mysterious itch on my left-side back at the liver meridian, yin (female) energy is held in the liver. The 2nd chakra is the sacral chakra where creativity and feminine energies are held (the liver corresponds, I receive layers upon layers of clues as to where to look.)

Many of my dreams have a strong sexual connection. I was disturbed by one where my husband was trying to use a large sex toy with me. He had two on hand and they were very graphic, I can still picture them clearly. *Interpretation* We have been on two different wave lengths since my walk-in. I think this dream is a reminder we don’t fit any longer. He has opened discussion several times this year about this, and I had a knee-jerk reaction. Three weeks ago, I opened the conversation and this time he knee-jerked. I know it is inevitable that we part ways, and though we are not fighting or hateful towards each other, we are not fulfilling each other either. There was also the color purple, spiritual, royalty, creativity I think the color Aqua blue was there, but not so prominant.

Although I can’t remember what we talked about, Erik Medhus was with me in a dream. I am sure we shared some laughs. Erik is also very helpful when something is bugging you.

I am noticing that I begin dreaming before I fall asleep now. Likewise, I go deep into a meditative state as soon as I close my eyes. Sometimes I see the inside of a spinning MerKaBa.

Entering a Void

    Enter the VoidBeginning Thursday, July 28 (2016) I have been lost. At one time I would have called this a depression cycle (the clinical variety), but now I’m not so sure that depression is what I was experiencing. Doctors are good at handing out labels, and it does often make people feel better to “know there is a real problem” because knowing equates to fixing it.

    Usually when I feel a depression cycle coming on, I just know I am going to feel off, lethargic, unemotional or overly angry. I tend to just hunker down and ride it out. This time felt different and it seems like it is because I am now “aware.”

    What I have felt the past few days has been zero desire to meditate. To even think about a Higher Self, or my mission, passion, high vibration, purpose. etc. I did not eat well, binge watched 4 seasons of Orphan Black and felt generally edgy. I had a high school reunion that I fully meant to go to, but I am just not feelin’ it. I don’t want to dress up or put on a smile for anyone.

    The energy has been off, too. Is is just me, I wonder? I could not even sleep in my own room until I smudged. I smudged and blessed the entire house for good measure. I thought it was interesting I started crying while blessing my bedroom. I stopped myself from letting go with a blubbering snot-fest because the idea was to raise energy, not give in to it. It actually felt good to stand up to it, too.

    When I could sleep, I felt like a lot was going on, but I could not remember much of it. The bits of dreams I did remember were so odd, I just let them go. I did not want to put the effort into trying to understand.

    I thought about my guides, what do they think of me now? Then I realized I had returned to dogma thinking that I might displease some jealous god.

    It occurred to me that the only one I was acting against is myself. I “wasted” 3 days to entertainment and sleep. Ignoring my spiritual enlightenment and the creation of happy experiences here on Earth. Or… did I? There is no punishment. There is only 3D time passing. It was a choice. I felt low energy and enthusiasm. Instead of a fight, I just let go and stopped feeling like I had to answer for it.

    This is Only a Test

    EndingsHave you ever noticed, you are moving along nicely, learning great stuff. Synchronicity is hitting you between the eyes so often you are getting dizzy?

    Then suddenly, it goes deadly still…

    You begin to wonder if you imagined it all.

    I finally followed through with something I had been dreading. Having a talk with my husband about our future together. I have changed and he has noticed it. My children have noticed it. It seems I was the last one to notice how much I had changed. I am a Walk-In and I do not have the same feelings as the one that built a relationship with my husband. Awkward.

    As I accepted the reality of my walk-in, I  could see the tangled personalities and unravel them. I let go of personality traits which did not belong to me so I can move on successfully.

    So, item of business to take care of… Let my husband go. He has already been considering it. He even mentioned how it felt like financial convenience is what kept us together. The fearful side of me agreed, but wanted to have a safety net in place before letting go. hmmmmm, that is not how this works.

    I knew inside I did not get to choose how to make it happen. As I prepared to bring it up, I received so many synchronous events. Number messages, dreams, words and images. Silver Xterras, too. Two showed up for me that morning, my Guides’s way of letting me know they got my back, when I made up my mind to do it today.

    Then when I did, he did not accept the idea.

    Then the vacuum closed in on me. Now what? Did I make a mistake? My guidance, the messages, the pictures and words left me. I felt so alone. Did I imagine it? After taking stock, counting my fingers and toes, I realized, this is just the moment for me to internalize the entire situation, it did not harm me. Have faith in myself. Believe who I am. Am I still going to follow through when it looks like I may have made a mistake? Or am I sure of myself, who I am and where I am headed. As soon as I let the fears go, my guides were there with me, congratulating me on my growth.

    I know inside our parting ways inevitable, but he needs time to grow with it as I did.

    3:31

    Mango ORMUS WineToday was very full. My Mango ORMUS wine needed filtering, time to ferment in the carboy with an airlock. This is only the second time ever that I have made wine. My first was with dandelions and it came out awesome. Making it with ORMUS is supposed to create a very healing tonic. I am excited to have this experience.

    With the full moon, it is also time to collect The wet method ORMUS again. I had taken a two month break, my part time job is taking full time energy, I was too fatigued to perform any alchemistry.

    Those were the primary functions of the day and time restrictions had to be adhered to. I also did the food shopping for the week and for the dogs. It all got done and in addition I coached a friend facing a difficult decision. As Bashar would say, what is it that will make you happiest? Taking this approach and not second guessing it works  very well. Since facing my own difficult task and learning to face an uncertain outcome (leaving it to the Universe pretty much guarantees better results than my own limited ideas) prepared me for this conversation. The lessons continue to come on this very topic. Yes, I got it, but I get to practice over and over with new situations and details. My guides want to anchor this lesson in solid ground this time.

    I even got to enjoy a couple of hours out with my friend Miss Raina who hosts Transcendental Transformations on Blog Talk Radio. She was my spirit guide briefly at the most synchronistically timed moment. Miss Raina unlocked my next level of training. It was very pleasant catching up with each other, I really enjoyed this time with her.

    Back at the ranch, I had to finish my ORMUS work with the wine and wet method collection. At last I’m finished. and as I settle down, I see 3:31 on the clock.

    ***”Angel Number 331 encourages you to stay positive and optimistic about your future and destiny. Trust that you are surrounded, supported, encouraged and loved by the spiritual realm and Universal Energies. Your future looks bright and prosperous, so get on with living your life with passion and enthusiasm. Serve your Divine life purpose with confidence and self-belief, safe in the knowledge that you are on the right track. Maintain a light, bright and loving heart and mind.

    Take bold steps while listening to the inner-wisdom of your higher-self, and move forward fearlessly.”***

    This message again illustrates the way my guides reinforce new lessons, giving me opportunities to exercise the principle just learned.

     

    Awakening and Relationships

    Spritual awakening sounds so wonderful. Like … “At last, everything makes sense!” In reality, it is going to turn you upside down and shake everything out.

    Everything you hated, everything you loved.

    This post is about relationships after awakening… I wonder if there is emotional support for the partners of awakened people. Universe knows, they’ll sure need it!

    When awakening, one generally feels the bliss and excitement of exploring something new. I enjoyed this state for many months, sharing observations and bits of newly discovered truth with my curious, but otherwise indifferent husband. Then I began to notice the stark contrast as my husband muddled about in his 3D world, co-creating negativity and separateness. “Hey, you jerk, you cut me off!” Wow, it makes me cringe when he lays into the horn as someone thoughtlessly plows through his right-of-way.

    Through my meditation and observations, I came to the understanding that I can’t make him see things or act differently. Free will, remember? Although we have ascended, we are still in 3D ourselves and must learn to act lovingly with everyone for that is how Oneness is achieved. Where better to start than at home? Just because we share an intimate relationship does not change how I am to accept, love and forgive this person.

    After meeting some of my new friends, most of whom present pretty well, not the aged rainbow hippy persona in more than a small handful of them he remarked, “I can see now that you aren’t crazy.” C’mon, you gotta know they are thinking it. 

    Another glaring issue was that I did not care to spend time doing the old things we used to do. I don’t drink much. I don’t want to hang out at bars. I do want to go to Reiki circles, metaphysical fairs,  water blessings… The diversity in our interests is taking me away from time spent with him, and his idea of fun irritates me. Trying to keep up with both worlds is wearing me thin. I try to incorporate both, it just doesn’t work.

    From his viewpoint, awakening has ruined me. We grew far apart and I am no longer his playmate.

    This alone is enough to navigate. I have an added complication, I am a walk-in. Although all the memories we made together, the family we raised are still in my heart, I am not the same woman he married.

    When we met, I was experiencing the death throes of my 3rd marriage. Too soon to be jumping into another relationship. But he was the love of my life! Granted, he looked at where my life was at and said I was a schooner crashed on the beach. I had every intention of getting my ship back in shape and making my own wake, but it was so easy jumping onto his! Everything he liked I liked. He made me laugh. He made me feel sexy. Nothing was ever normal around him. He fed the needs of that soul. For 20 years, she let him.

    In 2014, the Walk-in began to initiate the soul exchange for the third time. This time it came from a new angle and snuck past her guards. Even though she wanted to be whole, understand why a successful career eluded her, she was stubborn about holding her ground.

    If you do not understand what a walk-in is, rest assured, this is a pre-birth contract made between two to achieve particular goals in the lifetime of the vehicle. We both share the body, but now I am in the driver seat.

    When I first learned of the soul exchange, I thought it was fascinating. I followed the blog of a woman who wrote about Ascension as she discovered her own walk-in and the struggles she went through. I was speechless when I recognized myself in one of her posts. My mind could not accept it at first. As it sank in, my husband’s words from a day when he was upset with me came back, “You’re not the same person.” 

    It is true, I am very centered, I am less fearful of the unknown, more willing to step out in faith. I am not needy, jealous or suspicious. For the first time in my life, I understand who I am and why I had the experiences that came to me.

    For some time, I have been getting the knowing that I needed to let him go. I could even see his guides giving him the nudge through messages. He does not know how to recognize them. He mentioned how he sees 8:13 a lot which is the address of a condo he still owns. He creates our separation saying he [doesn’t want] a divorce.

    I went through moths of agonizing over this, and preparation. The past week I was given message after message that I needed to lighten up. I am doing this for him. Letting him off the hook, so to speak. Even yesterday I received two messages back to back, “Do it, do it now, we are here for you.”

    I stepped into the abyss, I told him I feel we are holding each other back. I know he needs to change career and feel like it is not going to happen for him until he is free of me. I am restricted by his desires and can’t pursue my own career path out of respect for his needs.

    He went through an array of emotion, yet even the accusations and anger did not upset or make me want to lash back. I had compassion and love, though not the kind that keeps a marriage bubbling.

    Today, as he was leaving for work, he cried. Today, I feel as though I am more alone and hopeless than ever before. I want to be able to see ahead, and I am not allowed. I want to hear reassurance from my guides, but my own vibration is so low with grief, they will never get through.

    I have been in this low place a few times before. This is when I beg for death to release me. Two of my sisters followed through with the feeling. I will not, but still, it would be SO much easier. I also know it is darkest before the dawn.

    Let Go Of “How”

    Be A TreeI am an experienced with manifesting. While I have done it all my life, only recently have I learned I was doing it. Since becoming aware I recognize how it feels when something is about to manifest. My heart leaps and speeds up slightly, filling me with happiness. As Abraham, channeled by Esther Hicks, would say, I was in the “vibration of the having.” It seems manifestation should be easier to do now that I know how it feels, yet that is not the case. I am too attached to the outcome. I have been trying to control how it happens.

    Bashar describes the method of creation as having and idea and speaking it aloud with a description as detailed as you can conjure. Feel the excitement, then… let go of the vision, maintain the excitement. Source can certainly come up with something more exciting than I can imagine on my own anyway. We do tend to limit ourselves based on egoic ideas or our capacity of knowledge.

    Be. A. Tree.

    Kristen Clark related to a tree when giving an inspired message to her friends about abundance. Trees do not worry about their needs. They don’t chase rain. Rain comes to them.

    Too simple? Let me put it another way. You want to throw a big, important party. You have an idea for the colors you want, the theme, but how to execute is making you break out in a sweat. Hire a party planner. Spell out your vision to her. Then, let it go. Your excitement about having the event is still high, but you are no longer sweating the details.

    This S*** is Getting Real!

    Since I have made the agreement to follow my guidance, pursuing a meaningful path and a soul journey, I have been stretched and tempered. I feel like an athlete in training. Now that I am remembering that I agreed to the soul exchange and why, the training, support and reminders are not letting up. In fact, they are getting more targeted and clear to me.

    I have already experienced letting go of a “safety net” which would have collapsed if I actually needed it last November. As I let go I felt peace. Calm. Like I was in a dream and nothing could harm me. Yet, it wasn’t a dream.

    I was still trying to control the details which only delays the outcome. It is 8 months later and I am again facing the fear of letting go of the familiar, which “seems” safe. I know what I have to do, I am having a hard time doing it. I want to see my new safety net before I let go.

    The really hard part is this involves someone else. What my team has been showing me through a variety of examples is that I need to lighten up. I need to release the feeling of doom. Fear wants to grip me, but if this is my Divine Path, why should there be any fear?

    The answer is: There shouldn’t be any fear.

    Then there is also the lesson of ego. I have been making this more about me  and my needs, ignoring the other person. What about him? He is in his own place of change and decision making. He is avoiding making a hard turn out of consideration for me. We are stagnating in our own quagmire. Where once our goals were common, there has been a small shift in course. A one degree shift is small at the point it happens. As one moves out, that one degree becomes wider and wider.

    It is clear the sequence I want to see is not going to work out. And I am supposed to lighten up. I wanted this conversation to be initiated by the other, but in the past, I let a knee jerk reaction shut down the progress. It is time for me to initiate the conversation. And I should do it with excitement and anticipation. The end of a long standing relationship is not generally a happy occasion, however, in this case, it is not out of hatred and anger, it is in love and the highest and best wishes for a happy future.

    Still, I am feeling sick to my stomach right now.

    Tarot

    Tarot-blogSince my awakening, it seems my guides are taking great delight reconnecting me to my past gifts. Most recently, I was nudged to get a Tarot deck. Now, I must say, this creeped me out a bit. To the old me, this was the epitome of demonic witchery. To the new me, it still seemed rather dark.

    Still, I went to amazon and began looking at the different decks. I really wanted a classic deck and had no clue there were so many themed decks. I ended up being drawn to a Hermetic deck. It is rather serious looking in its striking black and white illustrations. I figured since I was learning the precesses of Alchemy, this deck would be fitting.

    I began reading lessons on Tarot. I know I will take classes eventually, but wanted to develop some foundation as to what the cards were and what they represented. First date stuff.

    Today, I was given a nudge to do a reading. I did not even know how to lay out a spread yet. So, I let my guides lead me to a web page that would get me started.

    My First Reading

    I used a Celtic Cross Spread and this is what presented:

    1- 9 0f wands Lord of Great Strength | Me
    2- Ten of Wands Lord of Great Oppression | What opposes or influences me
    3-2 of Pentacles Lord of Harmonious Change | Origin of my question
    4-3 of Pentacles Lord of Material Work | Recent Past
    5- 4 of Pentacles Lord of Earthly power | Significant issues that may occur, depends on how I handle the present situation
    6-5 of Pentacles Lord of Material Troubles | What lies ahead
    7- Universe The Great One of the Night of Time | Current State of emotional self
    8-The Last Judgement The Spirit of Primal Fire | External influences
    9- The Sun Lord of Fire of the World | Desired Outcome
    10- Ace of Pentacles Lord of the Root of the Powers of earth | Ultimate outcome, not predetermined, but the most likely on the current path.

    Interpretation

    I have found my strength which proves to be more than I used to believe possible. There is opposition to these changes from my  husband, it changes the nature of our relationship. I have been wondering about the course of my life, this reiterates that change is involved. In the most recent past, my concerns had been material in nature, concerned for income and career in marketing and business development. All very 3D. With the 5th card, I see that if I follow the advice I have been receiving from my guides to concentrate of the creation and leave the income to them, I will master Earthly power. Or in other words, Earthly concerns hold no power over me.

    The card showing my possible future threw me off a little- Lord of Material Troubles. However, I feel positive that I will be above material concerns through following my guidance. The Universe is the end of the Fool’s Journey and depicts enlightenment, the answers are in hand. While I know I still have much to learn, I have noticed how easily I incorporate all that I am learning. I comprehend deeper meaning as evidenced by the contrast offered freely on Facebook! LOL As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, I am remembering what I already know and have experienced. Many of the spiritually active people we meet have not had experienced spiritual awakening in their previous lives. I have been a practitioner in many of mine. My emotional state is still “in the dark” but Night time is also a time of dreaming.  This post on Dayna’s Living Life In Between blog is descriptive of how dreams and lessons coincide. I have reached a point in my training where I must begin to put the lessons to practical use in my life. The lessons will never be over, but I have reached the end of a cycle. As I live what I have learned, a new cycle of lessons will begin and the reference to Primal Fire means to me “trial.” Using modern terms, I am in Beta mode.

    My desired outcome is represented by the Sun, enlightenment to the world, this is my purpose, how I am to serve those that are led to me. I hold keys to help others unlock their own gate to the path of enlightenment. The ultimate outcome, yet to be written, but likely if this path is followed would be command of Co-creation on Earth in our Oneness.

    Beginning Chapter Two

    September 17, 2001 my sister Crysten took her own life in anger and despair. She longed for an unconditional loving relationship but it eluded her.

    As I sorted through her apartment, disassembling her presence there, I found her journal. A personal message of hope for healing. I decided to let her live with me in this journal. I made one entry shortly after she accepted her new reality with the intention of making this a daily habit as I also had healing to undertake.

    My second entry waited until February 3, 2015 when I began the awakening process. A cleansing of all the false ideas, programming and dogma that weighed my soul down. I began to meditate and I simply wrote my observations in the journal. People get so caught up in “How”  to meditate. I never thought to ask if there was a right way. I just closed my eyes, took deep, slow breaths and thought about people I loved. Colors and pictures swirled in my “mind’s eye” or what I now call my third eye. It was like dreaming awake.

    As time went on, meditation got easier… and it got harder.  This is part of the training.

    It took just under 1 1/2 year to fill the journal. There was a lot of confusion and more revelation. I began to remember. Truth before my perception was altered. Recurring early childhood dreams came to the surface and now I remember the past lives they represent.

    I began to remember I am.

    The rinse cycle

    With physical manifestations and messages from my guides being transformed into lessons learned, the last journal entry took a few days to complete. But what is time? Even time is melting away as understanding it only exists where I think it does. But it doesn’t. LOL That’s all right. You will understand in time. Ha! I can’t help myself.

    This entry is about the end of a cycle and began to come to me on June 28, the day that marks the half way point of this leap year. That is 180 days. adding 1+8+0=>9. 2016 is also a 9  and this indicates the end of a cycle. The next half of this year will be ramping up a new cycle of events, transformation. My life begins a new chapter. The date June 28 (6+2+8=>7) is a 7 which is an octave. Octaves are a training cycle, upon reaching 7 you go back to 1 and repeat the training with new eyes and a higher level of understanding without the baggage carried through the previous go-round. How synchronous that this comes with the last page of the book.

    With new clarity and understanding about myself, my path, I am ready to embark on the next leg of the journey. If the first part was cleansing me of false beliefs, opening my mind to TRUTH, then this must surely be the time to bring in the fresh water and rinse all of the residue away. I am filled with anticipation. From what I have learned up to now, I know it is too good to keep to myself. Good, bad or ugly, I am going to share my story with whomever cares to follow. It is my wish that by doing so, I may support another soul on their journey to find Joy, remember who they really are and experience Unconditional Love.

    Image- Crysten modeled occasionally for a photographer friend, these are two of my favorite photos of her pictured with her journal. Photo by Kitty A. Smith

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